梦

昨晚又发梦了。。。。
好久没发那么多梦了！！！
虽然印象不深，但却忘不了！！！！

最近，生活的起落真的好大。。。。
平时冷淡无情的我也快受不了了！！！！
惟有的只是那苦苦支撑的尊严。。。。
记得，以前自己告诉过别人，压力是自己给的。。。。
可是，当自己陷在里面时，还是无法自拔。。。。

人生总有起落嘛！！！看开点，也会快乐点！！！
谈来何尝容易？？？？

就连想找个谈得来的人诉苦也难！！！
难道只有梦陪我吗？？？
我真的就这样挂了吗？？？
我不甘心耶！！！

如果你注意的话，会觉得最近我常来这里，也每天都在fb上！！！
因为不敢让自己太的空。。。。
头脑一得空，就开始乱想~~~会想太多！！！

习惯

写了整晚，结果是：牛头不对马嘴！！！！
真的写不出什么来，写到 pek chek，结果全擦了。。。。
@@！！！！

唯一得到的是一句：
当绝路变成出路；当绝望变成希望；当不惯变成习惯。。。。

conclusion:
习惯了担心，虽然才离开没多久，但却开始担心。。。。
担心你今天过得好不好？？？
担心你是否过得比昨天好。。。
早上吃得饱不饱？？？
晚上睡得好不好？？？
下雨天时，你拿冰冰的小手会不会很冷？？？



晚安。。。我睡了^^

1st lolipop ever in my life.....

finally, i ate a lolipop.....
i ate it today.....^^
i really never eat that b4!!!!

when i was very very young, my parents wont let me to eat.....
after i grow bigger, i also never eat that coz i think that wont b delicious......
that is why, i never try it.....
until today....

but you give me a lolipop today....
really a suprise for me.....
no 1 will take lolipop to me before this....
haha.....

but u different!!!^^
even that not mean anythings....
but it may mean a lots....

u even c me dunno how to open the packing....
but luckily i still know how to eat....^^

now only i know why ppl so like to eat lolipop......

that is great.....
worth....
sweet....
and giving u memories.....


u know y i say worth?????

coz normally i eat Halls!!!!
Rm1.20 (price for now) for 1 "stick" (x9 tablets) !!!!
u know how fast i can eat????
2 hours 1 stick!!!! can even faster sometime!!!!
believe or not depend on u....
but lolipop really can tahan so long....^^
i think that sure will cheaper than Rm1.20 right???? (normal lolipop)


sweet???

Halls is sugarless loh.....
so, really hard for me to eat this taste.....
really seldom for me to have a candy that so tasty loh....
somemore is given by u.....
sweet + sweet = so sweet!!!!^^


memories????

that was the memories among us....
better dun comment too much....


after stop support Halls for more than 2 years, i think i can thinking of support lolipop.....
but not that kind of 2 hours --> 9 tablets lah....
else is will die very very soon.....haha....

suddenly i dunno what happen to me!!!!
i so confusing..... i so scare!!!! dunno y!!!!
i juz do a big bad mistake!!!!
mayb it was a biggest mistake for a guy....
i wonder y i make the call.....
is it because i too love her????
i hope she will forgive me.....
i say something at the wrong time....
totally wrong time....
with wrong way.....
defenately wrong way.....
but i sure!!!!!
that will be the right person......
my brain always stop working at weekend....
that will totally not what i like....
dun ask me what i write for this post....
it was a shame....
i hope no third ppl will understand it.....
i juz make it as a reminder that i had done such stupid thing....

笑

我现在才知道原来， 笑是爱与外最难的字！！！！
一个笔画简单到连小学生都嫌太容易的字居然会那么难！！！
一个笑容里能有无数的感情。。。。
傻笑，奸笑，微笑，真笑，假笑，等等！！！
居然有那么多钟？？？？
笑也是一种艺术，一种你用一生去学习的艺术！！！

从小，我就不懂得怎样笑！！！！
毕竟，那童年无邪的笑是最自然，最天真的！！！！
现在，很难再找到那种笑容了。。。。
在我的回忆里，笑渐渐被遗忘了，心里多的只是一丝的烦恼！！！
不笑，不笑，时间长了就连几时该笑都不知道。。。。
在现在的社会，不会笑的却是一个很大的损失！！！
但我不会很在乎，因为毕竟我不是靠笑找吃的。。。。
但不代表我不喜欢笑，只是不懂得怎样笑！！！！

感觉上自己笑起来，好假哦！！！
笑得好不自然，笑得自然就笑得不美！！！
真的好难笑噢。。。。>
直到，遇见了她。。。。
我才开始找回那久违的笑容！！！！
虽然我不是笑得特别美，但却特别开心。。。。^^
她的笑容，可甜美的多了，比起我的，好很多。。。。。
只要她那嘴角一弯，那笑容，真的好甜噢。。。。
只要想起她，就不能忘记那甜美的笑容。。。。
真的 SWEET 到不知道怎样形容。。。。。
看了，很舒服，很自然。。。。。真的！！！
多么希望每天都能看到她笑。。。。
为了让她笑，我会努力的学笑，更会努力的学逗她笑！！！！

就只有那么一点吗？？？

有时候，绝路也是人生的一条出路；
有时候，逃避也是解决的一个方法；
有时候，天与地之间只是一线之差；
有时候，对与错只不过是一丝概念；
有时候，我慌张摇摆因你的一句话；
有时候，改变一切是你的一个微笑。

dun call me translate in english pls!!!
is outside my english level...^^
sry ya....

曾经

曾经，我以为爱的出现都是因为有寂寞的存在。。。。
once upon a time, i think that the love is due the loneliness....
曾经，我取笑别人说我爱你是因为他们爱自己。。。。
once upon a time, i think that people say i love you because they love theirself....
曾经，我以为以为我只需要自己一个人就足够。。。。
once upon a time, i think that i just need to have myself....
曾经，我认为自己是那种无血无泪的冷血动物。。。。
once upon a time, i think that i am those who no feeling toward everythings....

但，我都错了，都不是。。。。
but, i wrong.....

same food, different taste....

this weekend really is a black weekend for me.....
evrythinsg go in wrong direction.....
but luckly, look like mayb it will going alright....
whos know????
lets c on monday!!!
i really hope that will be alright!!!!

actually, yesterday i go to a place!!!!
a restaurant!!!!
last time is 2 ppl, but this time is 4 ppl (with my mum and sisters)....
like last time, i am the first person to walk in follow by the other(S)...
i choose the same place to sit......
when the menu come on me, i totally doest not want to think what to eat.....
same as last time...... a rice and a drinks.....
but, the taste different from last time i ate.....

i still remenber last time i help to clean all spoons and forks b4 eat....
this time, sry man... no more special cleaning service....
that time, i ate 1 bowl + few spoons.....
this time, juz 1 bowl only.....
after i ate, i wonder am i ordering the wrong food or the waiter take the wrong order?????
y the taste change so much..... i ate very less that day....
even my mum ask me y eat so less???? am i full enough????
but that bowl of rice make me even full till cant finish my dinner!!!!
from that time, i learn a things: when u eat with different mood and different ppl, the taste will be different!!!!

after that, i go buy a shirt for my convo....
that is good to have a nice look at convo.....
but, i not happy at all.....
coz, all those ppl i want them to c me in my convo will not present that day.....
neither 1.... that will be a convo with something less.....
a regret....
i may have more convo in future....
but, things never happen same for twice.....
my future convo will never replace this convo.....
like what she say: no 1 can replace any 1 in ones heart.... same for me... and u.....

down......

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dunno what to say............................................................................................................................ so down................. what can i do???????????????????? any1 tell me what is going on????????????????????? i can sure tonight will be another insomia night for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DYING

ADV. DIPLOMA!!!!
A SCARY WORD FOR ME!!!!
TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM DIPLOMA!!!!
I SAY LIAO U ALSO DUNNO TRUST OR NOT....
BZ FROM 1ST WEEK UNTIL NOW!!!(WEEK 8)
* I NOT THOSE STUDY STUDENTS!!! ONLY COMPOUNSORY ASSIGNMENT I WILL DO AND SOME TUTORIAL ALSO JUMP JUMP JUMP!!!!
ALMOST SPEND ALL MY TIME WITH THIS STUPID COURSE!!!!
THIS IS WHY MY BLOG NEVER UPDATE FOR ALMOST 2 MONTHS!!!
AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IS I STILL ACT LIKE A NOOB IN CLASS!!!!
THAT IS WHAT I DUN LIKE ON MYSELF!!!
I DUN LIKE TO LOSE......
IN EVERYTHINGS......
I HOPE I CAN DO WHAT I DO IN MY DIPLOMA YEARS AND GET WHAT I GET IN THAT 2 YEARS TOO....
(MAY CONSIDER EASY YEARS)
BUT I KNOW THAT WONT HAPPEN ANYMORE BECAUSE "THE THINGS WONT HAPPEN SAME FOR TWICE"!!!!
I ENJOYING THE LIFE AND I DYING!!!!!
THIS IS WHAT PPL SAY ENJOY DYING?????
FOR SURE THIS IS AN SPEACIAL AND INTRESTING SEM FOR ME!!!
I GET SOMETHINGS SPECIAL FOR ME!!!!^^
I ALSO DUNNO WHAT TO SAY ACTUALLY, JUZ HOPE I CAN DO WELL THIS SEM!!!!