2 months... cool or hot???

ya... almost 2 month....
time pass really fast....
if things not going on that way, what should it b now?????
will it better????
nobody knows....
but for u.... now is the best......@@~!

outside the window is juz finish raining....
but i sit inside my room and look outside......
almost no wind... and a bird juz walk pass the electric cable hangging outside which juz infront of my window....
another 2 pigeon come and standing there.....
nothing special.....
everythings look so peace.....
ya... sure peace.....
malaysia no war, no volcano and no tornando....

that is what ppl say too peace and too free.....
when u eat too full and ntg to do, then u will start to do some abnormal things......
which some ppl call it stupid things.....
sometime still thinking of u.....
but that is totally not my job now.....
ermmm.....
that mayb coz of holiday now and too free....

that is juz after raining in the hot hot afternoon....
but the air feels deadly....
erm.... cool???? not.....
hot??? not.....
juz nice??? dun think so.....
then???? i dunno.....
arm... that is hot in the cool and the wind is in the hot but the wind is not hot.....
actually dunno how to discribe it....
juz confusing about hot and cool.....

andbody tell me how hot is hot????
how cool is cool?????
and anybody tell me u choice is true or false???
no answer man.....
coz juz like "the road not taken" that we study at form 4......
that is 2 road infront of u.....
u can juz choose to take 1.....
and that is no return after ur choice.....
u never know what is happenin at the other road......
that is the meaning of life.....
the things will never happen same for twice....(my favourite sentence from Nadia 2) and Nadia 3 is coming....^^

dragon flies in the city!!!

Are you happy????

Is that what u want????

U know what i think???

dun guess!!!!

believe in what u see!!!!


that is a things that totally out of our imagination!!!!!

it can be whatever that u can think about it!!!

that is too long story to talk about it too!!!!

conclusion for that: look like ok,but not!!!!
things go alright, but finally not!!!!
mayb that was juz like what ppl say!!!!

meet the right/wrong ppl at the wrong/right time.....
wrong/right ppl exist in the right/wrong place......

梦

昨晚又发梦了。。。。
好久没发那么多梦了！！！
虽然印象不深，但却忘不了！！！！

最近，生活的起落真的好大。。。。
平时冷淡无情的我也快受不了了！！！！
惟有的只是那苦苦支撑的尊严。。。。
记得，以前自己告诉过别人，压力是自己给的。。。。
可是，当自己陷在里面时，还是无法自拔。。。。

人生总有起落嘛！！！看开点，也会快乐点！！！
谈来何尝容易？？？？

就连想找个谈得来的人诉苦也难！！！
难道只有梦陪我吗？？？
我真的就这样挂了吗？？？
我不甘心耶！！！

如果你注意的话，会觉得最近我常来这里，也每天都在fb上！！！
因为不敢让自己太的空。。。。
头脑一得空，就开始乱想~~~会想太多！！！

习惯

写了整晚，结果是：牛头不对马嘴！！！！
真的写不出什么来，写到 pek chek，结果全擦了。。。。
@@！！！！

唯一得到的是一句：
当绝路变成出路；当绝望变成希望；当不惯变成习惯。。。。

conclusion:
习惯了担心，虽然才离开没多久，但却开始担心。。。。
担心你今天过得好不好？？？
担心你是否过得比昨天好。。。
早上吃得饱不饱？？？
晚上睡得好不好？？？
下雨天时，你拿冰冰的小手会不会很冷？？？



晚安。。。我睡了^^

笑

我现在才知道原来， 笑是爱与外最难的字！！！！
一个笔画简单到连小学生都嫌太容易的字居然会那么难！！！
一个笑容里能有无数的感情。。。。
傻笑，奸笑，微笑，真笑，假笑，等等！！！
居然有那么多钟？？？？
笑也是一种艺术，一种你用一生去学习的艺术！！！

从小，我就不懂得怎样笑！！！！
毕竟，那童年无邪的笑是最自然，最天真的！！！！
现在，很难再找到那种笑容了。。。。
在我的回忆里，笑渐渐被遗忘了，心里多的只是一丝的烦恼！！！
不笑，不笑，时间长了就连几时该笑都不知道。。。。
在现在的社会，不会笑的却是一个很大的损失！！！
但我不会很在乎，因为毕竟我不是靠笑找吃的。。。。
但不代表我不喜欢笑，只是不懂得怎样笑！！！！

感觉上自己笑起来，好假哦！！！
笑得好不自然，笑得自然就笑得不美！！！
真的好难笑噢。。。。>
直到，遇见了她。。。。
我才开始找回那久违的笑容！！！！
虽然我不是笑得特别美，但却特别开心。。。。^^
她的笑容，可甜美的多了，比起我的，好很多。。。。。
只要她那嘴角一弯，那笑容，真的好甜噢。。。。
只要想起她，就不能忘记那甜美的笑容。。。。
真的 SWEET 到不知道怎样形容。。。。。
看了，很舒服，很自然。。。。。真的！！！
多么希望每天都能看到她笑。。。。
为了让她笑，我会努力的学笑，更会努力的学逗她笑！！！！

就只有那么一点吗？？？

有时候，绝路也是人生的一条出路；
有时候，逃避也是解决的一个方法；
有时候，天与地之间只是一线之差；
有时候，对与错只不过是一丝概念；
有时候，我慌张摇摆因你的一句话；
有时候，改变一切是你的一个微笑。

dun call me translate in english pls!!!
is outside my english level...^^
sry ya....

曾经

曾经，我以为爱的出现都是因为有寂寞的存在。。。。
once upon a time, i think that the love is due the loneliness....
曾经，我取笑别人说我爱你是因为他们爱自己。。。。
once upon a time, i think that people say i love you because they love theirself....
曾经，我以为以为我只需要自己一个人就足够。。。。
once upon a time, i think that i just need to have myself....
曾经，我认为自己是那种无血无泪的冷血动物。。。。
once upon a time, i think that i am those who no feeling toward everythings....

但，我都错了，都不是。。。。
but, i wrong.....

same food, different taste....

this weekend really is a black weekend for me.....
evrythinsg go in wrong direction.....
but luckly, look like mayb it will going alright....
whos know????
lets c on monday!!!
i really hope that will be alright!!!!

actually, yesterday i go to a place!!!!
a restaurant!!!!
last time is 2 ppl, but this time is 4 ppl (with my mum and sisters)....
like last time, i am the first person to walk in follow by the other(S)...
i choose the same place to sit......
when the menu come on me, i totally doest not want to think what to eat.....
same as last time...... a rice and a drinks.....
but, the taste different from last time i ate.....

i still remenber last time i help to clean all spoons and forks b4 eat....
this time, sry man... no more special cleaning service....
that time, i ate 1 bowl + few spoons.....
this time, juz 1 bowl only.....
after i ate, i wonder am i ordering the wrong food or the waiter take the wrong order?????
y the taste change so much..... i ate very less that day....
even my mum ask me y eat so less???? am i full enough????
but that bowl of rice make me even full till cant finish my dinner!!!!
from that time, i learn a things: when u eat with different mood and different ppl, the taste will be different!!!!

after that, i go buy a shirt for my convo....
that is good to have a nice look at convo.....
but, i not happy at all.....
coz, all those ppl i want them to c me in my convo will not present that day.....
neither 1.... that will be a convo with something less.....
a regret....
i may have more convo in future....
but, things never happen same for twice.....
my future convo will never replace this convo.....
like what she say: no 1 can replace any 1 in ones heart.... same for me... and u.....

down......

.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
dunno what to say............................................................................................................................ so down................. what can i do???????????????????? any1 tell me what is going on????????????????????? i can sure tonight will be another insomia night for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

new sem juz start!!!!
but look like not that easy!!!!
i try to do my best again!!!!
but still not that good!!!!!
@@?? and >not so comfortable with my situation now!!!!
i like leading, i like win, i like every things!!!!

but the most important 1, i like happy!!!!
juz peace can make me peace!!!!
but juz a war at downstair!!!!
even that not involve me, but i still dun like it!!!!!
y cant every 1 sit down and talk rationally??????
is that hard????? very hard?????? any 1 tell me pls!!!
hard?????

dun talk about it!!!!
it really make me stress!!!!!
i try to be cool and ignore it!!!!
but i cant!!!!!
these kind of things really disturb me badly!!!!
XXXX!!!!
it make me so "down" now!!!!

when i "down", all my thinking become chaos!!!!
all things mix together!!!!
until it can mix a chinese song with a english song and come out with own equation!!!!
zzzzz.....
i not crazy or what!!!
that is juz my way to realease stress and get off my xxxxing "down"!!!!!

end of D

two years..... gone!!!!!
time passed really fast, and i still dint realise that!!!!
you never know what have you done if you not look backward!!!!
i do everythings to make sure i not regret for my coming ages!!!!!
Enjoy everythings!!!! that is what i try to do!!!!!
from we dunno each other, until we play each other.....
many things happened, either sweet or sour!!!!!
always keep in memory..... Forever!!!!!
"things never happen same for twice" that is what i learn when i watch "Nadia 2"!!!!!
so, DMI2 2009-2010 will never happen again!!!!!!

i appreciate!!!!
appreciate to have such great partners!!!!
not more, just eleven of them!!!!
we not that good, but we not that bad!!!!
from the 1st day, until the last day......
we learn from each other and we help each other......
for no reason.... and no return.......
we know that is not an easy things, so we work hard......
even in the midnight!!!!!

From time to time, we may have small argue!!!!!
but that is nothing.... it only make us more close to each other.....
we going to advance D with another 2 years......
then we have to seperate......
technology will never pull our relationship to such close like now!!!!!

i scare!!!! very scare!!!!! scare of alone!!!!
i dun like evening!!!!!
the suns fall give me a sign of leaving!!!!
the shadow will never hide my fear!!!!
worry and alone, just like the mountain and the sea.....
when i walk, i always walk faster......
i scare to walk behind people beacause it look like they going to leave me......
i scare people leaving me behind, and also scare to leaving people behind!!!!
because i dun want them to have same feeling as me!!!!!!

-good bye!!! but not forever!!!!!

老歌翻听~谢谢你的爱1999

说再见别说永远

再见不会是永远

说爱我别说承诺

爱我不需要承诺

不后退就让他心碎

宁愿孤独的滋味

不被了解的人最可悲

反正爱不爱都有罪

要走也要擦干眼泪

别问爱过多少人

在一起的人

只问爱你有几分

别问太多的伤痕

如果不懂伤有多深

别问最爱我的人

伤我有多深

现实总是太残忍

我早已付出了灵魂

two cups of drinks from a seed

A romantic and a peace!

A good bean will give you a great latte at the same time give you a great coffee.....

A cup of coffee that simply pour in white porcelain cup or a latte with unlimited arts, will you pay (about) Rm2 for a cup of "kopi ice" or another cup of latte with Rm10 (or more)

both from the same bean!

people always link latte with "ti amo" (mean i love you) and link coffefe with "kopitiam" (mean cheap / normal standard)......

different people at diffferent place and different time with different mood will giving me different answer!!!!

A western and an eastern, both of them give us an unforgetable memory......

A 40 years old manager who talking with his bussiness partner and having a latte in coffee shop and yet he still not forgot the romantic when he have his first latte with his wife during they are still couple.

A 80 years old uncle who playing chinese chess at the garden and drinks a cup of kopi'o still remenber that during his childhood time, he drink 3 cups of hot coffee to alert himself when he burn the midnight oil for his school exam.

suddenly i realise sometime, we does not need to speak so much but ppl understand......
but sometime we say too much and ppl still not understand!!!!
that is the different!!!!!
so, today juz say the main point......

still remenber got ppl tell me this:

dun look adults world by the child's view.....
dun predict the future according to the history!!!!

thats all!!!!

cny???

wow!!!!
today is 11 already!!!!
after i write this blog should b 12 feb 2010 already!!!!
so, still 2 more day to chinese new year!!!!!
as u know, cny should b happy right????
should all red with smile right????
yes!!! for sure!!!!
u can c all the shop selling red shirt, all the ppl buying the red cloth and all things with an extra red cover!!!
the surounding is full with the cny feel!!!!
u can feel it, me can feel it, everyone can feel it!!!!
but what to do?????
still so blur!!!!
cant mix myself into the happy feeling!!!
mayb is the stress????
or is work till too tired?????
or mayb is coz me always not so happy and keep myself in the depress mood until dunno how to happy????
anyway!!!!!
i still cant feel the happyness like last few year during the cny!!!!
last time dunno y so happy????
1st sure is ang pow lah!!!!
then the others really no idea......
but now the only thing to motivate me for cny mayb is juz the angpow's content loh.....

anyway!!!
hope u all have a happy cny!!!!
dun like me ooo.....

知足......

中餐又说不浪满；

西餐又说太普通；

跑步又说没力气；

走路又说很懒惰；

站着又说脚会累；

坐下又说椅子葬；

为什么邻居的水果总是比自己种的好吃?

为什么抢来的东西总是会比自己的珍贵?

为什么有了老婆却总是要在外寻欢作乐?

既然彼此不相爱那为什么还是要结婚呢?

外国的月亮真的会比较高而且比较圆吗?

今天拿九十九分明天一定要拿一百分吗?

人真的那么不会做选择吗?

人真的那么不懂得知足吗?

u,U,YOU???? what about me????? juz waiting.....

Caution: "u" not equal "U" not equal "YOU"....
for those who not understand can try to direct translate to chinese because my language is not so good...SRY!!!
Try not to read this....but feel it.....


U!!! is u and U dun want me to choose this road so early....
But why???
Sometime I think I understand, but I think I not really understand it....
Mayb U 2 have urs own reason, I wonder i can know, but I never ask about it.....
Mayb I not dare to ask, or mayb the best result is not to ask and keep silent.....
Anyway....
Unfortunately, I cant control myself and I had taken the road at a not suitable time that U will never like it.....
I know it....
So, I take it secretly and silently, so u dunno about it....
I sure u will know about it once a day and U have to know about it because u have the right to know about it and I have the responsibility to let U to know about it......
For sure, I will try my best to delay it to a suitable time before I let U 2 to know....
But whos know???
I cant predict the future, and I dunno whether I can keep it until the correct time or not.....
But I really dun want and not so stupid to put so much time to care for something that do not bring me a conclusion......
I study for electronics,I learn that input must have output, I dont like to do somethings that do not provide me the result like the input without output......
That is a Black hole.....


Randomly???Luckly???Unfortunately????Proudly??? or Sweetly???? or mayb Emotionly???? (Honestly, I really dunno at the time when I write this article.....)
I choosen YOU....
I dunno y, or mayb i dun want to know y.......
I may throw the salt into the sea.... or stone????(doest it make any different???? I think no...)
or I may throw myself into volcano?????(or mayb not that serious.....)
I giving up my domination and let YOU b my boss......
But looks like u dun like.....
However, YOU not tell me the answer, you skip it and make it as a myst.....
I will wait for it....and one day i will get it for sure.....
I still waiting....
patiently......
Waiting for YOU, waiting for my boss and waiting for the answer.......
I hope the answer from YOU is what I waiting for.....



P/s: After c this please left ur comment here....
dun left it at outside....
Thnx....

生活是如此的美妙，即时时隐藏着魔鬼般的残忍；
眼前的他是敌是友，模糊的双眼看不见一切真相；
被胜利染红的双眼，使我无时无刻的盲目往前冲；
想吃别人的甜辣椒，却没有勇气去吹反击的信号；
怕吃到麻辣的蜜糖，但又不忍心自己被自己折磨；
美丽又有刺的玫瑰，会比冰山雪地里的梅花美吗；
那天早上种的桃花，为何到现在都还没有发芽呢？

路 ~ 坚持！

前方的路，无法看清多长多辛苦。。。。。
一步又一步，为何每步都那么辛苦？？？？

半路的那场雨，淋湿了我残旧的破衣。。。。
难道是为了要让我更加坚强。。。。。

有人出世就好命，

但是我没那种命。。。。。。

没人会问我是谁，
就算问了也忘记。。。。

张扬不是我的作风，
帅气不是我的路线。。。。

目无表情，并不代表我无情，
默默无言，不代表我不存在。。。。

坚持， 自信与勇气让我不断向前走，
我会用心的拼命好让你能记住我的名。。。。。

我并没恨命，三分天注定，七分我来定。。。。。
若要成功，就要靠自己。。。。。。。